7 Years of Life Lessons
As the month of March looms closer, I find myself stepping back from the world of mesh and I find a way to be happier. It is a survival mechanism which is so important for my own personal life. I make sure I choose to be happy by doing this and I work at it to make sure my own mind is in a healthier place.
March is a mix up of good emotions and bad for me, which is why I step back. On March 3rd, it will be the 47th year of the day I married a wonderful man who gave me so many good life lessons so that I could be a stronger and better woman. On that day, I said “I do” to a man I had known for just over a year and I stood before him and promised him that I would be a good wife. I kept that promise to him for the 35 years we were together before he died. I have no regrets by choosing to be his wife, because that day I had also chosen to fill my life with many wonderful life lessons. Of course, I had little clue of how amazing it would be, even though I had only flown for 18 hours from England to Singapore, just one month earlier to embark of a new life as his wife.
My life has vastly changed over the past seven years and I could look at March the 10th as the day that broke my spirit and left me disabled. But it never broke my spirit because I am a much stronger person from all the life lessons I had learned over the past 40 years before the implant surgery.
I must admit to being a blind fool after I signed up with a law suit, but of course I had no life lesson experiences in law suits to understand that signing up for a lawsuit would open the doors to those whose intentions are to profit from people injured by medical devices. So, I cannot blame myself for learning the hard way. But learn I did and I now use it as a life lesson not just for me but for my family.
I don’t push my life lessons down the throat of my daughter, because she learns in her own time. We just had a conversation a few days ago about something her Dad told her many years ago. She laughed and said “My Dad was so wise, but I had to learn by doing things my own way”. Yes, she is right. We can only guide and be there when our children feel down after a bad life lesson, and help them through it. Fortunately, by allowing her to learn from her own life lessons, my daughter is a strong woman who can pick herself up and do whatever it takes to turn things around. I am proud I allowed her to choose her own life lessons, because I have watched her grow because of them.
A mesh implant did not control my life, nor was it the only thing in my life. I don’t accept that mesh can control me nor do I accept that I must stay under its spell. I don’t! My life is mine to choose how I live it and I get up every morning with new determination to make the most of each day that I possibly can. So, I close the door to negativity and pull out all my positive thoughts to remain living an enjoyable life. But this HAS changed how I deal with things.
This past week I made changes in small ways because I sat and thought about the people who always stood beside me while I wrote the truth on this blog. I made a conscious effort to clear out the remaining debris and allow the sun to shine through to give me a happier life.
I know that it is still going on. I know that the only way you can learn your own life lesson, is to open your eyes and see that once you signed up with a lawsuit, that you became a target for those whose only intention is to gain from your health issues. But I accept that everyone must do it at their own pace. I also accept that some will cling to those they feel are helping the cause, because they will never be ready to open their eyes. I also accept that they will become collateral damage and it is their choice to make.
Everything is here on this blog for you to learn and become a stronger person so you don’t fall through the cracks and go through the hard life lessons I have had to learn, but it is your choice to read or not to read. I have put in thousands of hours of learning and I am now ready to enjoy my life with good thoughts instead of bad, day in and day out. But I am stronger and so much wiser than I was seven years ago.
Would I have chosen this life lesson had I been given the truth about mesh implants? Definitely not! But for some reason I had to learn them and I chose to not turn a blind eye so that I could give women the truth. Was it worth it? Yes, because my conscience is clear. I did not take money to write here. I did not hold back on the truth because I was afraid. I gave it here, lock, stock and barrel and it is up to you to believe it or not. I am a better person because I told the truth and did not take any money to fill my own coffers.
I am posting this today, so that I can take the month of March in my stride and celebrate all the life lessons I have learned and enjoyed and set aside the bad ones for a time. I choose to be happy………………
Now on to new life lessons and hopefully they will be happier ones for me to enjoy.