This morning I awoke at three and lay in bed until six, before I gave up the idea that I would be able to go back to sleep. I was lying there mulling over what has happened in the last few months and how difficult it has been for me to deal with it. You may think I don’t have a problem with revealing things others are doing but you would be wrong. I have had such a hard time trying to come to terms with it and I am sure it will take me a long time before I do completely and stop being angry at myself. Then there’s the backlash that comes with revealing the truth. I became an instant leper on Facebook by many. It is stressful and difficult but I stand by the truth. However the truth does not set you free, it opens you up to all kinds of lies and innuendos. Loss of friends and support that I need as a mesh injured woman. Some women are afraid to support me openly for fear of being targeted and eaten by the wolves. Yes it is not an easy road to go down, but even if I stepped off this path tomorrow, others have already been watching and researching those who are using all mesh injured women. They are not going to stop. I just happened to wake up and announce what was going on, and more women stepped forward to tell my daughter what they already knew.
I lay there this morning wondering how I could have allowed myself to be used so easily and thought about how long it took me to get a clue. Almost four years. My daughter wrote a blog recently about ‘useful idiots‘. Someone took great offense to it and he tried to blast her. Of course she fought back and blocked him. I have no doubt he is a very unhappy person but you know what? Nowhere near as unhappy as mesh injured women who are realizing now that they have been duped into believing they had a hero, speaking out to the world about how bad mesh is. But the speaker was an espionage traitor playing both sides of the fence. Jane Akre is now a fallen hero and not in a good way and right now I just feel just like a useful idiot.
I’ve got to tell you something I also thought about when I could not sleep. I am definitely no fan of the lawyers who do the tort cases, but at least they give you a contract, tell you up front what you are going to have to fork out of your settlement and you know unless you sign up with them, that you’ll never get anything back from all you’ve forked out and how damaged you are. But then there is the other side of the coin. The lawyers who set up Jane Akre to friend us and infiltrate our lives. That is the worst part of this betrayal because we thought she was doing all this for us. Many women still believe it because none of us can imagine that another woman would do this to us.
It was all there right in front of my eyes and I did not allow myself to see it. Okay, I did ask a few questions. But even though the answers were simple and wishy washy I allowed myself to fall in the comfortable place of trust. Don’t we all do that at some time in our lives? Sometimes things work out when you trust and sometimes you pay by a rude awakening later. That rude awakening is slow and painful and this is where I am at right now and have been for the last few months.
The truth is I should have thought about a few things. Medical Mesh News Desk is a big web site. Jane Akre constantly says she doesn’t have any money, but who set up the site? Who pays for the upkeep? I can tell you it is not cheap to hire a company and the one who built and maintains hers is in Germany. You can read it in tiny print on her site. Setting something up like her site without any maintenance will set you back several thousand dollars, at the very least. You would also have to have a good budget for monthly maintenance. I don’t know the exact cost because I have an in-house tech called Kim. Kim is my daughter. She has always been brilliant with computers and worked her way up into good jobs because of her self-taught knowledge. So I don’t pay anyone to set things up, do continuous maintenance or fix things when something goes down. Yes, things change with programs and computers and changes cost money if you are not a computer tech. Jane Akre even tried to draft Kim into working on her site because she is so good at it. But of course Kim declined. The gist of this is, someone else had to pay the bills to get her site up and running. Jane did not take several thousand dollars from her own money and set up a site out of the goodness of her heart! She had a motive.
Behind motives is always one or more agendas. I have no doubt the final result is financial with Jane. Lawyers who deal with our cases have to work without compensation for the hours they put in until our cases are settled. Jane Akre is the same which is why when women wanted Kim to ask if she was going to be paid when Johnson & Johnson settle, she never answered the question but told Kim she was out of line and kicked her off the MMND support group and BLOCKED her. I ask you to think about what Jane has to hide. But you need to understand that she is NOT doing this on her own. She has financial backing to pull this off for those who also have an end game motive. What you may not realize there is a trail that goes back to something much bigger. MONEY, POLITICS and POWER. The trail goes back to men who want more money to gain more power and Jane is a big part of it. These men have plenty of money but political power costs huge money and they don’t want to use their own. But who knew when we signed up for a case against a mesh manufacturer that we were part of a much larger plan. I darn sure didn’t.
Then there’s the small fry users. The ones who want attention or they need an income. All this hype about mesh and injured women gave them a foot in the door for their own motives. They start up their own little cottage industries and find their own followers. They feed off those who are sick and in pain to get their own needs met.
I have heard others say to me you should leave this alone. Turn a blind eye and look the other way. Gosh that would be far simpler and less stressful if I did. If I could only go back before the genie was out of the bottle. But I can’t. Even if I could the ball was already rolling by others who figured it out way before me.
Someone else said to me “So what if they make money from this?” Sounds good doesn’t it. But have you looked at where the money comes from? Do you know that in October there is a huge convention out in Vegas? While you are laying at home, sick in bed, your lawyers and mine are all at this convention, hob knobbing with each other. Best buddies while they have fun under the ruse of a convention for guess what? Mass Torts made perfect! I’m not kidding. Yes, they are sharing with each other how much better they can make tort cases to make more money in the future for THEMSELVES.
Guess what all you ladies who don’t YET have mesh implants, this means YOU ARE the next targets! Not only that, but at the same time all those bastards who want to lend you, the now mesh injured women who need money to get the mesh out, they are also hobnobbing together with the lawyers. Yes they are also lawyers. Dirty ambulance chasing lawyers. They legally keep their contracts mired in clever marketing facts and you don’t have a clue what it is really costing you when they send you to their handpicked doctor to get the mesh out. Then these bastards will screw you and leave you to die. Yes it makes me angry because I know so many women who went to these doctors and now they can’t get fixed. Do you think any of this is right?
So now you may wonder what do Jane Akre and the Sawyers have in common. These lawyers and loan lawyer bastards sponsor Medical Mesh News Desk and TVT-NO. So where does the money come from to pay them? From you, the sick and injured woman who is lying in bed reading this blog wondering if you will die because of mesh. They will win the lottery when your case and mine is settled. Now how do you feel? Do you really want all this to be covered up? Your daughters or granddaughters are the next targets of these people and the tort lawyers!
Why don’t these people get a job, you may ask?
This is easy funding money to go into their pockets. Why don’t they have other types of sponsors on their sites? Because lawyers pay the most money!
This whole thing is very hard to digest I know and I too am still working on it. I have no doubt it will take a lot of time for any woman, but because I have learned a valuable lesson, I want other women to understand this whole process.
We are Targets! The small fry want to take advantage in pennies on the dollar, whereas the big guys want to take a giant cut.
At least I now know before my case settles and I know I have to prepare myself for more devastation. Or at least try!
My daughter and I are now targets for angry women who don’t want to know or believe the true facts. They are saying stupid things like we are working for J & J. So my daughter has addressed all this here
Now you may think none of this has anything to do with you and you don’t want to know. But it affects so many women and I just saw a woman make a post on the Medical Mesh News Desk support group page the next day after Jane Akre closed it to the public. She said she wanted to thank Jane for closing the group because she had always been afraid to say anything. Oh MY GOSH! This woman never looked at the people who are in this support group or she may think twice. Jane Akre put the wolves in with the prey long before she closed the door. Who are they?
Check out Michael Huttner in this blog called Power Now
And he has been a presenter at the convention in Vegas in the past. Take a look
Who else is in that NOW CLOSED support group? Be aware of who they are before you begin throwing out comments that you didn’t want lawyers to know. Michael Huttner and Harry Bell. Is Harry Bell your mesh injury lawyer? Did you find him through Jane Akre? Jane tried to get me to promote him to women who contacted me, but I never did. So before you speak out, this is a word to the wise. Sorry if I am the one who had to break it to you. I have no choice if I want you to know the truth.