Mesh a Slow Painful Death
I sit here this morning my mind in a turmoil as I ask myself this question. “What can I do to help this woman?” The answer is “I don’t know”. And yet, I cannot sit here and do nothing at all. I reminded myself ‘there but for the Grace of God go I’, and yet these women are not in this position because of any God. They are suffering because of humans. Because of a medical profession that does not care enough to change what is happening to women around the world. Because of money!
Last night I spent two hours on the phone with a woman in England. A woman whose journey into hell began in 2004 with a mesh bladder sling. A woman who is now sixty-two and wants to end her life. She told me she has always been a fighter, but now she has nowhere to turn. She just wants to go to sleep and never wake up again.
Sounds so simple I know and yet this woman after attending an exit of life seminar realized that the sleeping pills she has been hoarding will not do the job. That a fast easy way out isn’t that simple. She has prayed to have cancer to end her life and yet it doesn’t happen. This is a statement I have heard before. “Please give me cancer”. I was not shocked when she said this. You see there are many women who feel this way and have stated the exact things this woman said to me last night. “I just want to die”. This is because their pain is so extreme.
You may think they are exaggerating. No they are not! These women were in good health, normal women whose bodies have been mutilated by partial sling removals that not only did not fix the problem, but made it worse. They have gone through every penny they had trying to find a way out of the never ending pain and horror of what was done to them by placing a bladder sling into their bodies.
This woman was no different. Without help from her own country’s National Health System to remove something they approved being put into thousands, no hundreds of thousands of women, she sought help overseas. Drawn in by a website filled with promises of mesh removal and for her the beginning of a new life, she flew to this country, my chosen country and spent $27.000.00 only to become worse. Complete incontinence and a life of agony. To lose her life further into homebound abandonment. What then you may wonder can she do? In desperation, more money to private mesh removal in the U.K. without an end to her pain. Where does she go now? To an exit of life seminar to try to find out how to kill herself.
As I let this woman talk, and she did releasing all the pain and anger she felt at doctors who do not care about her and others and every day, they keep putting slings in women. At mesh manufacturers who produce a product that is placed inside a woman’s body that they and doctors state “Is not meant to be removed”, regardless that there could be complications. I tried in my mind how to help this woman. The truth is there is only one man in the world who could help her and yet at this point I don’t know if even he could undo the damage that has been done to her. Even if he could she would have to fly across the world to get to him. Spend many thousands of dollars that she no longer has. A woman who cannot sit and yet would have to travel sitting up in an airplane for many hours. Even I know that this is probably impossible and yet I am still trying to figure out how to help her.
Am I stupid? I have struggled every day for the past two years and two months to get help for myself. However, my help is finally on the horizon. Next month I will go to this wonderful man for my first consultation that will then allow me to have removal surgery. And yet I feel guilty because I cannot help this woman and thousands of others.
Where are the angels in this world? Why are women being abandoned like this? I don’t have the answers and don’t know anyone who does. I feel helpless!
Update. For new information click here. http://meshangels.com/2014/04/mesh-will-i-get-complications-in-the-future/