Today I used my Walker
I sit here right now wondering how could this have happened to me? I woke up this morning with terrible leg pain that became worse as my right foot touched the floor and I tried to stand up. I struggled to the bathroom where I had left a spare walking stick. As I cleaned my teeth it was stop and start to try to shift my left so that the pain in my right would subside. It didn’t happen.
Somehow I made it through to the living room and let my little dog Beaux out of his bedroom. My daughter had built him a neat little room out of an old baby crib, so that he is safe at night in his own space. As I let him out, he was a happy little dog who wanted his breakfast. I held on to my walking stick and made my way to the kitchen to fix his food and make myself a cup of tea. As soon as I was done, I headed for the couch. In excruciating pain, I managed to hoist my leg up on to the couch and exhausted I lay there waiting for the pain to subside. Three hours later I got myself up and checked my messages on my computer. A new story from another lady who has suffered for seven years, with many attempts to remove the mesh from her body. I cried.
I have a walker which I have never used because I know if I don’t use it, (my muscles) I will lose it. My muscles will diminished and I will be permanently in a wheelchair. So, I admitted to myself that today was a day for a walker. I hope tomorrow I will have a good day and won’t need it.
If you are out there wondering whether to have bladder sling surgery, then recognize that I am not the only sufferer. There are many. If you had a choice would you live like me?
If you want to see how I was before surgery and how I am now, read this blog and view my video.